what a week!

Such a busy day. I hate the morning routine question: what are you doing today. I always fill my days productively, but I rarely have a clear plan for the day ahead. My list for today ended up being huge! I always make a list, sometimes I put things on that I already did, just so I can check them off. I cleaned the house, vacuumed and moped, cleaned the bathrooms, did laundry and the dishes, I activated conrad's voice mail, I went grocery shopping, I got gas, I worked more on the movie I'm making for Caleb, I prepared my resumes for Monday, for the JobFair and learned more about the companies attending the fair. It has been a full day. Very productive... and yet, it seem that my focus is still on the financial productivity. Conrad was also very productive, working for two of his clients all day. I created a document on-line that tracks all his clients and the projects conrad is working on for them, and the cost and the payments. I take care of all the banking issues, tax savings, salary, credit card payments and other bills. I like doing this a lot. I'm still figuring out my role in life and my impact on this world. When having a full time job it's easy to slip into a robotic mode, following all the business rules already ingrained in my system, and when coming home at 5 I feel like i can veggie out on the couch and feel not even a gram of guilt for doing so.
I can do more though. Oh, how I wish I can get a good full time job. I always fill my time well after work anyway.

Conrad is so incredibly supportive of me in this season, and he genuinely appreciates my support and help in the Altmannhaus business. If only we could hold our own and save some money this season while waiting to move into our new place.

Oh, dear God, if anything, this is a season to rest in Conrad's love and grow in oneness while not trembling due to financial worries, like being kicked out of a lease for not making the outrageous rent payments.

It's weekend, and I hope what comes next will be relaxing and productive at the same time. I pray that God will bring our way his messengers and potential new colleagues and clients for our business. I pray God will make it clear to me what his plan for me is. May I rest in his power and love...