The end of first quarter

This is the season when I am least figured out. But I'm still me.
I have had the best talks with mom these days, and I feel like the world makes more sense now.
We agreed upon the fact that waiting for God's answer would be much easier if he gave us a time frame for the waiting part. Or if he could just tell me what is that I need to do in order to fix things, I would be more than happy to oblige Him. The unknown and the confusion is what makes life hard and complicated right now.
I have a hard time reading between the lines of Scripture. I have never been as impatient as I am now. But the message I got yesterday from a friend in Romania, that God has three answers to our prayers: "Yes", "Not yet" or "I have something better for you". That makes sense. Or that makes me like God's perspective. I don't think He is searching for my approval though... I strongly believe that there are times when this life is irrelevant to God, and His purpose for us is to get to know Him, and love Him and be holy.
I have learned to deal with the hard part of life, and work hard, and transform myself through a very intense physical process, but it's harder to build your faith on thin air, and not have any particular hardship but just having to wait on God. I confess that sometimes it seems proper to be discouraged in times like these, rather than be happy. But this morning I am happy. And I decided to take it as a gift, even if it may not last long. Right here, right now I feel content, and I want to hear whatever God has to tell me. ...Not to be misunderstood, when I am in distress I scramble for God's words of comfort and encouragement. And there are those times when I just fight with God... and I challenge Him, and here I am, walking my walk, in a maze or in a haze...