talk on the porch on the hottest day of this summer

One should never combine a cosmopolitan and a glass of sweet white wine, after a very chatty day, of a long interview followed by meeting a friend over coffee and swimming in the sun, on the hottest day of this summer.
And yet...
Mom and I were very chatty on this particular Tuesday, and we both had quite a fulfilling day, with good productive meetings.
And after I got started with my get together with Pam, talking about this year of unemployment, and all the things that god did in me as well as in my friend who shares thins particular situation of joblessness.
The words were flowing so smoothly off my lips, with our tummies filed with good shishkebabs, after the boys had left us on the porch, with the candles lit. I may have shared with mom very honest deep stuff, but it feels like last night I went all out. Mainly about my journey this year, of sharing a house with them, about how God turned around my way of coping with an imperfect situation, answering my old prayer that when I'll fail to se the truth about who God is and where I stand in his eyes, he will slap e silly if needed, in order to bring me back to reality. And I didn't like it. I didn't like to be put on the back burner, just so that He can prove to me that He can take good care of me and my husband, and He is mighty enough to transform me and my husband. And he allowed him to be the provider, just as I prayed for, when I told to myself that I'd rather be unemployed than be in that unhealthy work situation.
I have misjudged people and circumstances, and I fought against my context and mens, but God redeemed this crazy journey by giving mom and I a friend in each other. I don't know about her, but us living with them while being unemployed saved me from many depressed hours of discouragement and lack of direction and purpose. We used our time well, and we made dear dear memories together. And I do know that my being in her life so constant has been a blessing.

Anyway, over two hours of chatting would hardly fit on this blog page, and it doesn't even have to. We may even forget by tomorrow half of what was said last night, but if anything, this uncensored sharing was one sweet time, that added another layer onto our friendship. May God bless us with many days of joy or tears, of good stories and silences together... And we are thankful for his Grace of redeeming us in such a beautiful way.