housesitting week

a cold week. a silent week. a week of carrying for a puppy, having coffee withdrawals, struggling with patience and the unknown. we finally got the heat going. all we needed were some batteries to access the panel.
today i went over to help with caleb. mom hurt her back and maggie had an appointment. so i fed him a bottle and after playing a little bit while chatting with mom, i tried to put caleb to sleep, and he was so tired he wouldn't have it under no circumstances. so i held him as he fussed and sang to him and cuddled him. but nothing seemed to work. so i went down, let him play some more, and as he yawned and rubbed his eyes i held him close to me. and bounced him and snuggled with him and patiently waited for him to fall asleep. it's funny how babies sense our impatience. caleb seemed to ask me "don't give up on me yet." "i know i'm tired and cranky and loud, but please love me more, don't go, hug me and reassure me that no matter what you still love me." it may sound crazy, but we all need some type of reassurance once in a while, no matter how unlovable or unbearable we may feel like we are.
bailey needs play time and whenever i sit down he come and sits on my lap. he begs for attention and playtime and sometimes he is really really funny, but when it's raining outside, nothing comes easy.
it's a weird week and i had great hopes for a good turning point in my career, but i'm still on hold. maybe next week i'll know more. i'll have more going on.

in the mean time, we are celebrating allison's reception. and tonight we are going over to have dinner with mom and dad, and watch bones.