Retroactive thoughts

We were watching a movie last night, after all the guests have left the party, and Conrad got a call from a designer colleague, he filled me in about what they talked and then we looked at each other and said in unison: "we have jobs!" and most importantly, we are both very excited about our jobs... It is rater silly, but having jobs is such an amazing blessing. I was aware of it and grateful I have one when the economy started to crash ... but the level of joy for having a job after not having one in such a long time.. it's just amazing!
Both Conrad and I have been without income for 10 months.. and the 100 dollars here and there for little projects doesn't count. We spent monthly a lot more on phone bill, storage payments, car payments, school loans. It was very hard to be with n schedule and no income at the same time as Conrad, but we had one another to encourage and build up in our distress.
I am amazed that I didn't give up on Conrad and Conrad and his family didn't give up on me. We have failed over and over again in our attempts to get employed, and from the outside a lot of judgement and harsh words can be laid on the person struggling, as if that's what the person needs. Tough love is not what someone unemployed needs.
And I understand it's frustrating not knowing when this is going to end, not knowing if the other person is doing enough in order to increase their chances for employment... and living in a community is equally hard and helpful. Eyes are watching, minds are judging and advising on this or that matter, encouragement or advise is a tricky matter coming from someone who is comfortably employed or not in financial default.

My heart aches for all those who are still looking for jobs. And I pray God will take good care of their souls during these times. Despair and discouragement are so imminent. Every day fighting the same demons, trying to stay busy, hoping that maybe today will be the day when you apply for the right job or hear back from all others you already applied for.

I am tankful to God for not giving up one me when I didn't deserve any more faith in my doings, or when I was beyond discouraged, for receiving appreciation and hugs from the family that already gave us so much. We are truly blessed to be here today, a year later after our life started the most unexpected roller coaster of our marriage.